Dah lama tak berblog

Lama betul aku tak berblog..sampai blog aku nih dah bersarang ..huhuhu..Tapi syukur Alhamdulilah aku kembali ada masa nak berblog.Bukan apa awal tahun aku bz dengn mcm2 perkara,sampai semua social networking terpaksa aku lupakan sementara.

Oklah sekarang kita dah masuk tahun 2010..agak terlewat nak wrap up 2009 punya cerita..So kita move on lah kan ke tahun 2010 dengan azam baru untuk menjadi hamba Allah yg lebih baik dr sebelumnya. Hopefully dan tahun 2010 byk perkara yg aku plan alhamdulilah all in progress. Mcm rumah ..in progress lagi tapi SNP dah dapat, so nak kena proceed ke EPF , dan lawyer bank.

Lesen kereta dah siap n lulus dengan baik. Cuma nak bawak kereta nak kena praktis byk2.hahahha.takpa cabaran tu. Satu lagi aku plan nak cari tempat kejer baru kalu ada rezeki..Insya Allah semoga dipermudahkan segalanya. Amin

Jodoh, ok aku tau aku gak berumur sedikt tua dr dolu..tapi insya Allah thn depan ada rezeki mungkin ada.hehehhe..

Selain drpd itu,aku dah boleh biasakan diri handle anak2 sedara ku yg cute tapi datang nakalnya huhuhu..mau poning pala..tapi its ok..walaupun aku garang..aku still sayang kat budak2 ni..diaorg lah yg selalu memeriahkan suasana di waktu cuti aku..

Disebakan hari ini merupakan Maulidur Rasul, so aku nak amik kesempatan mengucapkan selamat menyambut Malulidur Rasul, dan ada masa amiklah kesempatan ini menghayati pengorbanan Rasulullah SAW . Sama2 kita hayati sunnah dan amal2kan dalam kehidupan seharian.tak banyak skit , at least kita buat jugak. Kalu dalam diri kita tak bermula siapa lagi kan..:)

Ramadhan Karim

Sedar tak sedar kita dah menjengah ke Bulan Ramdhan, bulan yang penuh keberkatan dan dinanti-nanti selama setahun oleh umat Islam. Selepas pemergian Tokwan , dan di ikuti Ustaz Asri dari Rabbani, boleh dikatakan banyak meninggalkan kesan kepada diri ini.Hidup bukan semata-mata mngejar dunia semata, tapi mengerjakan kewajipan yang telah diamanahkan Allah pada kita,dan memnyedari bahawa hidup sesudah mati itu pasti.
Alhamdulilah tahun ini aku mulakan Ramadhan dengan Solat Terawih di Surau berdekatan rumah. Waktu tidur ku dimalam hari agak kurang sedikit,kerna cuba disesuaikan dengan jadual bulan puasa , bermula dari berbuka sehingga ke solat terawih,mengemas dan seterusnya bangun awal pagi untuk menyiapkan juadah bersahur.

Rasa lucu pulak selalunya aku takda lah serajin ni,kalau nak dibandingkan dengan tahun lepas. Mungkin disebabkan pertambahan umur agaknya.

Ramadan ini mengundang ingatan ku pada yang telah pergi, terutama ayah dan tokwan ku. Setiap kali Ramadan juadah yang tidak pernah kulupakan yang menjadi kegemaran ayah ialah Murtabak beserta kuah jeruk bawang dan kuih talam. Di kampung selepas waktu sahur terngiang-ngiang suara ayah mengalunkan bacaan al-quran di benak ku.
Tokwan pula walaupun usianya agak lanjut,setiap kali Ramadan dia pasti tidak pernah ketinggalan menunaikan solat sunat terawih setiap malam Ramadan. Aku kagum bila mengingatkan semangatnya.

Semua itu sudah berlalu, aku cuma mampu mendoakan agar roh mereka berdua dicucuri rahmat, dan diampunkan dosa-dosa mereka yang lalu sempena bulan yang mulia ini.Yang tinggal cuma kenangan yang tak dapat dilupakan.

Jadi di kesempatan ini, aku ingin mengambil kesempatan mengucapkan selamat menyambut Ramadan, semoga amalan kita lebih diberkati di bulan yang Mulia ini.

Harry Potter and the half blood prince

Harry Potter really grown up just like seeing my little sister slowly grown up in front of me.Believe or not I'm not interested to read any of Harry Potter book..since the 1st release up to know.Too much fiction or maybe the story line doesn't suite me I guess.
Only my sis and her beloved cousin really crazy on this Harry Potter story. Tried to watch the story by bought the DVD but still me is still me, only kids (like my sis and her cousin) dying to watch it over and over again.Me only end up with boring face.

Finally today I trapped with no more kids with me , but the two teenagers really eager to watch Harry Potter.Surprisingly these teenagers usually wake up late on Sunday..had amazed me by waking so early just to watch Harry Potter today at the nearest cinema.

Make me line up for almost an hour just to buy 3 tickets for us (including me with the boring face).These two teenagers seem to be extremely excite. Planning to spend only RM9 each ticket ,unfortunately the movie classified as blockbuster for this weekend.Finally RM12 per ticket.I'm shocked , then I saw the blockbuster stated at the tickets.Ok fine...only for today.

Then the two teenagers really enjoyed the movie so much,and they're specifically can identified who is who, which I notice most of the actor been in Hogwarts since the 1st year with Harry Potter and friends.Me not too sure,only can memorize a bit.

What can I say this movie really grown up with the group of actor(including the extras).So do to my little sis and my cousin. Making me feeling a bit old today..

Am I Failed???!!!

Lately my mind quite distracted with few internal affairs issue. I'm feeling a bit or quite down recently.I don't know how to express what inside my mind and what I feel right now. The best way is by writing it inside my blog.At least I will be a bit release.

Since my dad passed away, I tried to settle every problem arise in our family.I mean in our niche family.Yes I do aware my dad family consider my younger brother need to take that responsibility.Since that he also no too strong internally and financially, so I need to assist him in taking care my other 2 sister and my mum.

Lot of issues actually start to be happen. I tried my best to solve it with rational,open minded, the best way I think. I start to realize my life actually start to change. No more shopping twice per month.Everything I buy or do I need to be more calculative.Quite tough for me to adapt with my new responsibility. From the list of responsibility not all I manage to handle it properly.But I try to take it positively.I need time adjust with new environment and life.

Actually I try to pretend with everyone I'm ok and I trying my best to tackle all the problem arise especially from my little sister.She still study at Secondary School in PJ. I just moved here to the school. She not seem to be happy at that school compare her old school in Kedah. I understand she still in thrauma since my dad passed away.She 's the one in the family which look and feel quite depressed, eventhogh until now.

She seem need to adapt and change a lot within short time of transition from our hometown to here. Yes, she do complaint about school, and etc2, which I ignored it , because I want her to understand this is time for her to change and make it more better than before. I try to pretend what she complaint doesn't make sense, but in deep of my heart I know she's hurt,tense, need more attention from me and the rest of us.

We try to give the best,but I know her heart still feeling empty.That what she told me before, but I just teasing her,and make fun,and sometime try persuaded her life will be much better.

Suddenly, yesterday my patience to her complaint come to the limit which I don't think I can stand it anymore.I really2 blowed last nite. I felt she really going overboard of my patience. I don't want too, but I need too.I really throw my anger to my little sis. Then she cried all over the night and refused to go the school today.She told my mum it won't happen if our dad still here. She also said she don't want to stay with me.

Yeah I realised quite tough for her to go through this hard time and also tough for me too to make her understand why I'm doing this and that.Also why I'm decided this and that. When she said to my mum she don't want to stay with me anymore.I asked myself 'am I failed to be good big sister?' Maybe yes...

But should I give up?No I shouldn't. I know sometime I neglected her, not too aware about her study,her needs, and also her happiness.Then here we go, I'm feeling moral down , stress, and FAILED.I need to stand up and cope with the problems.

I think , I really need advise and to cool down at this moment, (sigh)