Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Eager to be beautiful

Every women in this world wanna be beautiful, lovely and adore by others.I'm one of it. :) Actually I'm having problem with my face.What happen to my face??On last Ramadhan my face had been attacked by pimples..and it become more and more each day.My cheek become red due to few outbreak pimples..I really hate to see my face at the mirror.
I tried everything including,using 2 types of facial scrubs plus regular facial wash everytime I wash my face. With hope that the pimples will stop and will remove all the pimple's scar on my face.So on Hari Raya I will get my pretty skin back.
Unfortunately it become worse.So then I tried something like beauty soap.Walla more pimples coming out. Ok fine .I stopped using those scrubs, soap and what so ever.Back to my normal routine using facial wash, toner and pimples gel. So far I'm not so irritated .Pimples slowly stop from coming out.Fuhh what a relieve.
Then I meet one of my colleagues after Hari Raya.Her face had lots of pimples than before.So I ask her what happen? She said, due to her eager to get prefect skin face now her face getting worse.She told me, she had undergo facial treatment.Then see what happen to my face.

Alright , now moral of the story never get cheated by beauty products or service.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Rahmat di sebalik dugaan

Sedar tak sedar kita sudah memasuki Ramadan yang ke 22.Bermaksud lagi 8atau 7 hari Syawal akan menjelma. Alhamdulilah ibadah puasa dan terawih dapat aku jalani dengan baik. Cepat betul masa berlalu dan aku turut menyedari sudah setahun lebih aku bekerja di tempat kerja sekarang.Di tempat kerja ini aku perlahan-lahan bangki dari kekecewaan dan mengumpul sedikit demi sedikit kekuatan dan keyakinan diri untuk maju.

Aku juga bertemu dan berkenalan dengan rakan-rakan sekerja yang baik dan amat memahami diriku.Syukur atas kurnia yang diberikan olehNya. Tanpa aku dan rakan-rakan sedari, Bahtera yang kami tumpangi iaitu tempat kami mencari rezeki mula bergoyah. Pelbagai khabar angin yang kami dengari.Tapi kami masih bersatu hati berada disitu, dan melakukan tugasan seperti biasa.
Ternyata akhirnya bahtera yang kami tumpangi gagal bertahan.Demi memastikan bahtera itu tetap terapung , pengorbanan harus dilakukan.
Khabar angin makin kuat berhembus, menimbulkan tanda tanya, kegusaran di hati masing-masing.Sehingga pada suatu hari, salah seorang dari kami terpaksa meninggal kapal besar itu. Kami semua gempar dengan berita itu.
Akhirnya pengumuman dilakukan.Kami harus menerima kemungkinan diantara kami, ada yang harus berkorban meninggalkan bahtera yang telah kami tumpangi buat sekian lama. Sebak dan sedih kerna disitu kami mengenali erti persahabatan, susah senang ..pahit dan manis. Berita itu kami terima dengan rasa yang amat pedih.
Ada yang mungkin tinggal..ada yang perlu turun. Demi menyelamatkan sebuah bahtera yang suatu masa dulu gah belayar di lautan. Dari seorang ke lapan orang dan angka itu pasti meningkat.Itu pasti.sejauh mana bahtera itu mampu menampung.

Ternyata yg pergi merupakan teman teman rapat denganku.Menerima aku seadanya.Mengajar erti persahabatan yang hampir hilang dalam diri.Ramadan kali ini benar mengajar kami semua erti sabar dan redha menerima ketentuan -Nya.Tsunami ini membuatkan kami sedar ...bahawa bahtera yang kami tumpangi sukar bertahan dalam keadaan gelora yang kuat membadai.

Ramadan ini benar-benar menguji erti kesabaran, redha dan tabah menerima ujian ini. Ramadan yang memberikan erti yang sangat mendalam dan membuatkan kami semua sedar betapa berertinya Ramadan tahun ini.Sinar Syawal yg akan muncul, tidak lagi menjadi keghairahan buat kami seperti yg sebelumnya.

Mungkin Allah mahu menegur kami yg pernah dulu alpa, mengingatkan kami bahawa rahmatNya mengatasi segala -galanya. Kami terima dengan hati terbuka dan redha. Kami semua yakin diri untuk melangkah semula dan mulai pasti rahmat Allah terselindung di sebalik semua ujian ini.

Buat rakan-rakan , semoga ikatan ukhwah yang terjalin disepanjang perkenalan kita akan kekal walaupun kita punya jalan yang berbeza. Semoga kita diberikan kekuatan untuk menghadapi dengan pertolongan Allah.

Salam Ramadan penuh erti buat rakan-rakan seperjuangan, Salam kemaafan ku hulurkan andai ada salah dan silap.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Ramadhan Karim

Sedar tak sedar kita dah menjengah ke Bulan Ramdhan, bulan yang penuh keberkatan dan dinanti-nanti selama setahun oleh umat Islam. Selepas pemergian Tokwan , dan di ikuti Ustaz Asri dari Rabbani, boleh dikatakan banyak meninggalkan kesan kepada diri ini.Hidup bukan semata-mata mngejar dunia semata, tapi mengerjakan kewajipan yang telah diamanahkan Allah pada kita,dan memnyedari bahawa hidup sesudah mati itu pasti.
Alhamdulilah tahun ini aku mulakan Ramadhan dengan Solat Terawih di Surau berdekatan rumah. Waktu tidur ku dimalam hari agak kurang sedikit,kerna cuba disesuaikan dengan jadual bulan puasa , bermula dari berbuka sehingga ke solat terawih,mengemas dan seterusnya bangun awal pagi untuk menyiapkan juadah bersahur.

Rasa lucu pulak selalunya aku takda lah serajin ni,kalau nak dibandingkan dengan tahun lepas. Mungkin disebabkan pertambahan umur agaknya.

Ramadan ini mengundang ingatan ku pada yang telah pergi, terutama ayah dan tokwan ku. Setiap kali Ramadan juadah yang tidak pernah kulupakan yang menjadi kegemaran ayah ialah Murtabak beserta kuah jeruk bawang dan kuih talam. Di kampung selepas waktu sahur terngiang-ngiang suara ayah mengalunkan bacaan al-quran di benak ku.
Tokwan pula walaupun usianya agak lanjut,setiap kali Ramadan dia pasti tidak pernah ketinggalan menunaikan solat sunat terawih setiap malam Ramadan. Aku kagum bila mengingatkan semangatnya.

Semua itu sudah berlalu, aku cuma mampu mendoakan agar roh mereka berdua dicucuri rahmat, dan diampunkan dosa-dosa mereka yang lalu sempena bulan yang mulia ini.Yang tinggal cuma kenangan yang tak dapat dilupakan.

Jadi di kesempatan ini, aku ingin mengambil kesempatan mengucapkan selamat menyambut Ramadan, semoga amalan kita lebih diberkati di bulan yang Mulia ini.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Yasmin Ahmad Perginya Seorang Insan Istimewa



Tahun ini kita banyak dikejutkan dengan pemergian insan-insan yang agak terkenal dalam usia awal 50-an.Saya sendiri secara peribadi kehilangan ayah yang meninggal dalam usia 51 tahhun pada 12 April tahun ni. Juga dunia dikejutkan dengan Michael Jackson yang meninggal secara tiba-tiba akibat pengambilan dadah berlebihan.Raja Pop ini turut mengejutkan dunia apabila dia rupanya telah memeluk Islam dan pelbagai kontroversi yang turut mengiringi pemergiannya.
Baru-baru ini juga Yasmin Ahmad meninggal dunia akibat serangan strok, setelah pembedahan yang dijalankan untuk membuang ketulan darah beku di otaknya gagal.

Ternyata saya secara peribadi menerima banyak kejutan dari persekitaran. Lumrah alam, yang hidup pasti akan pergi. Berkisar mengenai Yasmin Ahmad.Hmmm kenapa memilih untuk menulis mengenainya? Saya sendiri kurang pasti, tapi ternyata dia salah seorang pengarah yang dekat karya nya dengan jiwa aku.Sebenarnya terlalu sedikit yang saya tahu mengenai peribadinya. Walaupun pelbagai kontroversi melanda dirinya baik peribadi mahupun karya-karyanya dia tetap cekal memperjuangkan idealoginya yang cukup unik.

Karya-karya Yasmin Ahmad yang sering kita tatap antaranya iklan keluaran petronas, sering meruntun hati kita.Ringkas, padat dengan mesej kasih sayang, perpaduan dan lain-lain nilai positif mengambarkan jiwanya. Begitu juga dengan karya-karya nya seperti Sepet,Gubra, Rabun , Talentime , Muksin dan lain-lain. Memang terdapat kritikan terhadap filem-filem nya yang agak sensitif bagi kita rakyat Malaysia yang kebanyakkan masih berfikiran konservatif. Tapi saya menonton filem-filem nya dengan fikiran terbuka dan saya mengerti apa yang ingin disampaikan oleh Yasmin Ahmad yg ternyata cukup kreatif menyelitkan unsur-unsur Islam dan tolak ansur sesama manusia, tanpa mengira agama atau bangsa.

Yasmin Ahmad seorang wanita yang berani mempertaruhkan idea dan pendapat melalui karya-karyanya.Secara peribadi saya sebenarnya amat mengagumi beliau seperti juga rakyat Malaysia yang lain. Pemergiannya umpama hilangnya sebutir bintang di persada seni kita. Diharapkan idea-ideanya bakal menjadi inspirasi buat golongan muda dan rakyat Malaysia keseluruhannya.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat buat beliau dan Al-Fatihah buat Yasmin Ahmad.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Harry Potter and the half blood prince

Harry Potter really grown up just like seeing my little sister slowly grown up in front of me.Believe or not I'm not interested to read any of Harry Potter book..since the 1st release up to know.Too much fiction or maybe the story line doesn't suite me I guess.
Only my sis and her beloved cousin really crazy on this Harry Potter story. Tried to watch the story by bought the DVD but still me is still me, only kids (like my sis and her cousin) dying to watch it over and over again.Me only end up with boring face.

Finally today I trapped with no more kids with me , but the two teenagers really eager to watch Harry Potter.Surprisingly these teenagers usually wake up late on Sunday..had amazed me by waking so early just to watch Harry Potter today at the nearest cinema.

Make me line up for almost an hour just to buy 3 tickets for us (including me with the boring face).These two teenagers seem to be extremely excite. Planning to spend only RM9 each ticket ,unfortunately the movie classified as blockbuster for this weekend.Finally RM12 per ticket.I'm shocked , then I saw the blockbuster stated at the tickets.Ok fine...only for today.

Then the two teenagers really enjoyed the movie so much,and they're specifically can identified who is who, which I notice most of the actor been in Hogwarts since the 1st year with Harry Potter and friends.Me not too sure,only can memorize a bit.

What can I say this movie really grown up with the group of actor(including the extras).So do to my little sis and my cousin. Making me feeling a bit old today..

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The climb in my life...............

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh
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Why i'm posting the lyrics? Coz I like the song.Very simple and straight forward.
Last time I went out and watched Hannah Montana instead watching Transformer 2.Actually me and my little sis planning to watch Transformer 2 on that day but unfortunately no are no tickets left for us.So, since we already in the queue for almost 30minutes I decided to pick Hannah Montana which is one of my nightmares to watch the kid's idol movie~Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana.Seriously I'm not her fan at all.

But suddenly everything change when I started to watch it and slowly to enjoy the simple story line about a teenager dream to be a singer, and she achieved it.But her dad want her becoming a nice and sweet country girl compare to glamorous teenage singer.

In this movie had include some of the songs of Hannah Montana..her song quite enjoyable and not too childish.I started to enjoy the song together with story. I prefer 'the climb' coz it more on me and I bet most to the most of the people around will feel the same.

In life we need to climb..there's no easy way to get up to the top.Whether you like it or not u need to climb up, and finally when you reach the top you will really feel how happy after you can see the beautiful view around which you never ever imagine before.

Similar to my life..a lot of climb i need to go through. Sometime I felt wanna give up. But I need to fight all the negative things in my mind and start to climb up. When I feeling down, at least when I'm listening to this song...I'm not sooo down.I start to realize not only me facing the difficulty but also other people too.Sometime they facing more harder than mine but still they climb the mountain without no doubt.

So why should feeling down before trying to climb the mountain. I should be strong and dare to take the risk and challenges..

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Perlu kamu..Ajai ft Kris Dayanti


Ajai & Krisdayanti - Perlu Kamu

Ajai:

Saat ini
Ku cerita
Isi hati segala rahsia
Aku rindu
Aku perlu
Hati kamu terukir namaku

Kris Dayanti:

Aku tahu
Aku rindu
Aku perlu mengenali kamu
Biar masa bercerita
Kau takkan hilang aku sayang

Chorus :

Ajai:

Ku sadari saat manis ni kan pergi
Biar aku ngerti
Kerna aku mahu kamu

Kris Dayanti:

Ku ulangi kau yakini hati ini
Kerna aku cinta kamu
Hari hari aku
Kan menjadi hari kamu
Kerna syarat hidup
DisayangiĆ¢€¦

Both:
Biar nyata
Aku setia
Janji cinta tentunya berbeda
Maafkan lah salah kita
Biar benci
Ku tetap di sisi

Chorus :

Ajai:

Ku sadari saat manis ni kan pergi
Biar aku ngerti
Kerna aku mahu kamu

Kris Dayanti:

Ku ulangi kau yakini hati ini
Kerna aku cinta kamu
Hari hari aku
Kan menjadi hari kamu
Kerna syarat hidupĆ¢€¦.

Ajai:

Ku sadari saat manis ni kan pergi
Biar aku ngerti
Kerna aku mahu kamu

Kris Dayanti:

Ku ulangi kau yakini hati ini
Kerna aku cinta kamu
Hari hari aku
Kan menjadi hari kamu
Kerna syarat hidup
DisayangiĆ¢€¦

Aku perlu
Aku rindu


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Love this song taken from OST Hati Malaya, touching song composed by Ajai and Lyrics from Shuhaimi Baba.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Am I Failed???!!!

Lately my mind quite distracted with few internal affairs issue. I'm feeling a bit or quite down recently.I don't know how to express what inside my mind and what I feel right now. The best way is by writing it inside my blog.At least I will be a bit release.

Since my dad passed away, I tried to settle every problem arise in our family.I mean in our niche family.Yes I do aware my dad family consider my younger brother need to take that responsibility.Since that he also no too strong internally and financially, so I need to assist him in taking care my other 2 sister and my mum.

Lot of issues actually start to be happen. I tried my best to solve it with rational,open minded, the best way I think. I start to realize my life actually start to change. No more shopping twice per month.Everything I buy or do I need to be more calculative.Quite tough for me to adapt with my new responsibility. From the list of responsibility not all I manage to handle it properly.But I try to take it positively.I need time adjust with new environment and life.

Actually I try to pretend with everyone I'm ok and I trying my best to tackle all the problem arise especially from my little sister.She still study at Secondary School in PJ. I just moved here to the school. She not seem to be happy at that school compare her old school in Kedah. I understand she still in thrauma since my dad passed away.She 's the one in the family which look and feel quite depressed, eventhogh until now.

She seem need to adapt and change a lot within short time of transition from our hometown to here. Yes, she do complaint about school, and etc2, which I ignored it , because I want her to understand this is time for her to change and make it more better than before. I try to pretend what she complaint doesn't make sense, but in deep of my heart I know she's hurt,tense, need more attention from me and the rest of us.

We try to give the best,but I know her heart still feeling empty.That what she told me before, but I just teasing her,and make fun,and sometime try persuaded her life will be much better.

Suddenly, yesterday my patience to her complaint come to the limit which I don't think I can stand it anymore.I really2 blowed last nite. I felt she really going overboard of my patience. I don't want too, but I need too.I really throw my anger to my little sis. Then she cried all over the night and refused to go the school today.She told my mum it won't happen if our dad still here. She also said she don't want to stay with me.

Yeah I realised quite tough for her to go through this hard time and also tough for me too to make her understand why I'm doing this and that.Also why I'm decided this and that. When she said to my mum she don't want to stay with me anymore.I asked myself 'am I failed to be good big sister?' Maybe yes...

But should I give up?No I shouldn't. I know sometime I neglected her, not too aware about her study,her needs, and also her happiness.Then here we go, I'm feeling moral down , stress, and FAILED.I need to stand up and cope with the problems.

I think , I really need advise and to cool down at this moment, (sigh)

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Marriage Season

This year I'm already turned to be 26.This number actually scare me.Why?The answer is becoz this year most of my friends are getting married. My mum and my grandma start to ask me when and who is my future hubby.I know they started to be worried neither me.

Before I start to tell more.. I would like to congratulate my friends Sabrina and Nizam(graduate same year with me on Feb 2004) finally they end up their long love story with a great and blessful wedding.Sorry guys cannot attend your weddings got something personal need to be settle,but no worries I already reserved both of you the wedding present.

Not forgetting my best friend, also the blogger Mohd Syahman already attended his 'kursus kahwin' today with his fiancee. He going to get marry by the end of this year. Of course my pray always be with your dear friend.

Hmm others..who also in the list..yeah my dearest friend friend Dyan and Pyan. Nice and happy go lucky couple.Always beside me when I'm in trouble. Already get engaged and also planning to start new life as husband and wife by the end of this year..Working hard for it to ensure the plan will be reality. Hoping can celebrate their special moment by this year.

Then who next? hmm the latest is Hairi Hafzi..My long- long time darling wannabe.Hehehe.. sound weird right? Ok I will tell a little bit about him. When I'm still studied in University we're very closed and almost to be couple.huhuhu..Eventhough both of us not destiny to be like other sweet couple, but had spend some few sweet memories together. I'm gonna missed those old sweet time with him . But nevermind I'm really happy he already find someone better than me. I'm always pray the best for him.:D

So now what about me????Hmm still looking for Mr. Nice guy.Found a few but already rejected them due to so many reason..Am i choosy?? I don't know..Maybe..This year there's a lot of thing in my mind, marriage, family matters, financial, housing, and driving license...huhuhu. I'm not sure this year I'm quite ready to be welcome in the 'marriage world' due to so many circumtances in my life.

So far I'm feeling bless , I'm on the right path of my carrier, at least I feel good about that.I get a lot of friends from diffrent background.I had widened my mind from being too conservative by knowing a lot of good friends from Facebook and my work place.

Marriage? I don;t think I'm ready yet for this year..Already got someone? Insya allah..if he meant for me, we will take our relationship to the next level, but for sure not this year.I hope he can understand in order to be with me.

The conclusion is, I'm happy my friends already found their true LOVE.For me I will let my destiny lead the way. I don't want to bother so much..

Gud nite KL..hope no more hazy morning tomorrow..

Friday, May 29, 2009

Syurga Cinta ...Wajib Tonton beb...


Semalam aku telah 'dipaksa' oleh member2 satu pejabat untuk menonton 'Syurga Cinta' filem arahan Ahmad Idham. Waktu tayangan pukul 7.30, jadi aku ni mcm biasa terkejar-kejar dengan waktu solat dan masa tayangan.Tapi Alhamdulilah sempat lah juga aku masuk 5 minit cerita tu ditayangkan.
Setelah aku menonton 'Syurga Cinta' , serius lah memang berbaloi tiket wayang RM 10. Pada mulanya aku ingat cerita ni ala-ala filem indonesia kegemaran aku ' Kiamat Sudah Dekat' .Konsep memang sama ,filem berunsur Islamik, merubah lelaki yang jahil tentang Islam kepada muslim yang lebih baik.Tapi gaya penceritaan totally berbeza.
Filem ni tampak macam ringan tapi sarat berisi mesej dan peringatan yang berguna buat kita yang bergelar hamba-Nya pada yang Satu.Lakonan Awal dan Heliza AF bagi aku tak mengecewakan. Terutama Awal, aku tak sangka dia boleh bawa wataknya dalam Filem 'syurga Cinta ' dengan baik.Sebab berat jugak watak yang dia bawakan.

Nak aku cerita tentang sinopsis ceritanya,nanti dulu kot...pergi tengok dulu, baru feel sendiri.hehehe..tapi serius memang tangkap nangis.Bukan sebab ceritanya jiwang, tapi filem ini buat kita sedar siapalah diri kita disisi -Nya...Terlalu lalai hingga lupa siapa kita dan mengapa kita disini.Jadi jangan lepaskan peluang menonton 'Syurga Cinta' di pawagam terdekat anda....

Monday, May 25, 2009

What is My1stop Virtual Shopping Mall for Dummies???


My1stop.com.my known as Virtual Shopping Mall, some of you had heard it some you don't.Hmm ok where should I begin. Basically I had been asked by so many people such as below questions:

1. What is My1Stop?
2. How to use it?
3. To be the member should I need to pay anything?

and the best final question,
4.Why should I have an E-store in My1stop cause I already had my own website or blog which already provided the payment system online?

Now I start to think like them too.Then I can answer without using confusing ,technical IT words which me personally admit I like to use those bombastic words to those not really friendly with IT world.

So 1st question,the answers is

1. My1stop.my place where you can shop online. Meaning no need to go for out for window shopping the things or variety of products all in one site (My1stop.my).You can spend using your credit cards or using online banking system. No CASH needed.

2nd question how to use it??
2.Quite famous this question.So easy, here whether you can choose for window shopping,buy something or open your own E-store. For those who like for window shopping no need to open an account or log in as a user. You just wondering around the e-store.Then if you're interested to buy then you need to log in as user.
Not yet has an account there? Better start to register now because it's totally FREE. Then after you log in as a user, you can start to buy things you ADORE which rarely to be found at normal Shopping Mall.

I would like to add something regarding why we need to have an account here? 1st we need to prevent fraud while doing the transaction or in simple english prevent from being cheated from the buyer and the seller.

3. To be the member should I need to pay anything??? of course not because its totally free. Just fill in the form then within 24hours your account will be activate. But if you interested to be the seller for free you can upgrade your account to seller for start-up package for free. Free and free again...:D

The above are the few info I would like to share about My1stop..Till we meet again...:)

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

44 hari berlalu tanpa mu (dedikasi khas buat ayah)

Esok genap 44hari pemergian ayahanda ku tercinta.Tersisa cuma kenangan lama yang datang menerjah ruang fikiranku. Pemergian ayah cukup memberi kesan yang cukup mendalam buat kami sekeluarga terutama buat adik bongsu yang cukup akrab dengan ayah.
Kami seolah-olah kehilangan semangat spiritual.Untuk yang dapat aku rasakan.Bukan aku saja malahan turut kepada adik-adik.

Bila terkenang kisah lama-lama, banyak perkara yang tak sempat aku tebus terhadap ayah.Ku akui aku mmg tidak rapat dengan ayah disebabkan jurang umur dan beberapa perselisihan faham antara kami. Disebabkan marah dan kecil hati aku langsung tidak menjejaki kaki ke rumah ayah selama beberapa tahun. Sebagai tanda protes. Aku cuma bertemu ayah di kampung nenek ataupun di luar. Banyak kali dia pinta aku untuk pulang, tapi kerapkali aku berikan pelbagai alasan.

Walaupun hubungan kami agak renggang, dia sentiasa mempertahankan aku dimata pihak lain.Hinggakan tentang soal kerja ku di Kuala Lumpur dia yang cukup beria-ia memberikan sokongan serta doa yang tak pernah putus.Alhamdulilah berkat doa ayah serta ibu aku berjaya mendapat kerja yang lebih stabil. Kerna ego dan rasa kecil hati yang masih bersisa menyebabkan aku jarang benar menghubungi ayah.Namun ayah tak pernah berputus asa.Setiap bulan dia akan setia menghubungiku.Sehinggakan setiap kali Hari Raya Puasa hampir beberapa tahun aku tidak lagi mencium tangannya memohon keampunan.

Betul kata orang bila dah tiada baru nak terasa kehilangan.Itulah yang ku alami saat ini.Hati mula rindu pada kata nasihat yang pernah kenal putus asa. Di hati berasa sangat terkilan sebab aku tak sempat meminta maaf dan ampun, dan menjaganya di waktu sakit.Aku cuma sempat pulang 2 minggu sebelum ayah pergi buat selamanya. Sebaik saja aku mendapat berita ayah telah tiada...saat itu benar-benar merentap hati dan perasaan ku.Rasa kecewa,kesal,terkilan,sedih bercampur baur.

Dari peristiwa itu aku mulai sedar,perkara yang lepas jangan pernah disimpan didalam hati.Aku belajar untuk memaafkan kekurangan ayah,dan menyedari betapa kasihnya dia pada kami adik beradik tanpa mengharapkan balasan walau sedikit pun dari kami.Apa yang diharapkan kami berjaya dan bahagia di dunia dan akhirat.

Hari ini, hanya al-fatihah serta doa mengiringi pemergian ayahanda tercinta ke alam sana. Yang tinggal cuma semangat dan kasih sayang membuatkan aku dan adik-adik lebih tabah dan kuat menghadapi masa-masa mendatang tanpa ayah.

Al-fatihah buat ayahanda Ismail Abdul (1957-2009),Semoga roh ayah dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang soleh.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Lirik Sampai Syurga Faizal Tahir

Ku membenarkan jiwaku
Untuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku
Untuk bersama kamu

Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah kumerasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu
Harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu
Terus ku tertunggu

Di hatiku masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik untuk diriku
Hanya satu
Hanya kamu

Ku membiarkan hatiku
Untuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Untuk tatapan kamu

Bersamamu harapanku
Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua
Untuk dirimu saja

Ku mahu dirimu
Bahagia untuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku

Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Addiction to Twilight




Twilight,hmm actually I'm not really into reading especially English novel.Coz I had try it before and failed to complete the novel.I don't know why.Maybe due to I'm not so fond with the story,lack of understanding due to the language used quite for me to be immersed into the story.Compare to Malay novel I'm easily blend into the story line.

Why and I started to be interested to this novel.I never watch the movie.I saw the huge poster of Twilight film but never put in my list of movie I wanted to watch.hehheehe too bad don't you think so.But I guess it seem to be another way around after I start to read the Twilight, the book I bought from the small bookstore near my office.

It's quite interesting.No wonder the girls around the world start to be crazy with Edward Cullen. In the film the the actor is Robert Pattison (I hope I spell it right). Even my sister start to be crazy with this guy.she read Twilight hundreds of time to ensure she never miss every line and every words.You know why it's delay my time to finish the book.

Ok here I share with you guys the story about Twilight. It's about a girl name Isabella Swan or known as Bella move to the small town Forks near Washington to live with her father. She hates the town so much coz its go a gloomy weather. Suddenly she start to be fallen in love with the extraordinary handsome guy Edward Cullen which is a vampire practicing vegetarian diet(still drink blood but only animal blood).Edward from Cullen's family which mean one of Vampire clan.

Then suddenly, both of them seriously in love. How the writer describe the love moment really real. How the writer elaborate quite details the Bella's feeling made we feel we're also part of Bella. First love .(chuckles).
Then suddenly conflict happen when the other clan of vampire got to know Edward couple with mortal girl(Bella),drag Bella along into vampire game. So, here the hero(Edward) try to save his lover life(Bella).It's really perfect love story between a vampire and a normal human.

Ok ,if you want to know more about the Twilight, I suggest better grab the VCD/DVD, or if you really wanna to go deep to the emotion of every character of the story just go and grab the book.For me I got both of it. Ok that's all for now.When I have time I will tell a bit about New Moon the new sequel of Twilight.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Yuna..the sweet,talented with adorable voice.


Dan Bila....

oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh–

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What can I say about her...talented,with the beautiful voices and cute also.

This song starttd to be hits now to the most malay radio station.Sorry her pix to small.But no worries just check to the video i posted here.So you can see who is Yuna.Yuna still study in UiTM Merbok Kedah in Law.Most of the people after watch the way she sing, confirm to be big fans of her including myself. Just enjoy the song.:D


Monday, March 30, 2009

My1Stop your new choice to shop..


My1stop..actually new for me.But somehow I don't know why suddenly I start to like it the way this site modernize the way of shopping.

I love to shopping,I can spend my time and money just to done some shopping thingy or most of time end my time doing window shopping(meaning nothing to buy)..Due to lack of time,busy with my personal life matter, and work I hardly got time to drop by to buy something or pay something.

What I do now all the bills I paid online.Even in the middle of nite,during weekend I will settle up on my bed, and start to pay my bills and etc.Including Facebook,unsettle my office job or extra job, blogging, and also SHOPPING.Now on my bed I also can pick or choose or just wondering around in side the internet. If I like the things,Online payment is there,with just few clicks everything will done.No need to queue up or check my purse do I have enough money to pay or not.After 1 to 2 days..I receive my good.If I'm not satisfy money back guarantee.That's the way I like it.

Why I choose My1Stop.A lot of e-store inside one website.Easy Online Payment System,whether I wanna choose credit cards,or other online payment is already there.I'm not good telling this good benefits.Just try it so you will know how convenient My1stop .

ok lah i need to take a break got things to do.

Just pay a visit to http://www.my1stop.my

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Sleepless Nite @ Pantai Baru & LOVE??



Nite already still cannot sleep..what to do?Actually I got nothing to share tonite..just being sleepless and a bit tired.Still looking an idea what to write tonite.Tomorrow another working day in my calendar.Need to mark on my table calender..
...yeah I got sumthing to share..sumthing about LOVE...why LOVE become the topic..oklah let's take a look 1st the meaning of LOVE before I start to share something about LOVE..walla get in from wikipedia page the meaning of LOVE..

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection[1] and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction.(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love)

Really complicated don't you think so the DEFINITION above..For me LOVE something that unexpected, unbelievable, and also MAGIC.Also hard to explain verbally..that's come the magic..something cannot be explain but can be feel internally..For example a child Love his/her mother so much,can we see it?The answer is no,we can't ever or never see the LOVE nor touch it.Sound do great the LOVE sound. Some more example, the interesting one,I bet many people had gone thru this experience.Fall in love,the feeling is so fantastic ,bombastic plus some more PRICELESS.hehehehe.You can just feel deep inside your heart the LOVE start to spark,just by seeing someone that might be a stranger,good friends or sometime your truly hated enemy.Suddenly your heart melted seriously from the cold ice into water..

Truly MAGIC don't you think so. Oklah I don't want to write so much regarding this topic..because my eyes really cannot stand anymore..So, I got something to share about LOVE as below..have a read ..and enjoy ur love around you as long as you can.Below is Love from Islam perspective and I and also share a video from my favorite's singer Siti Nurhaliza "Tika Cinta" meaning "When in love". For me the most important thing as a Muslim LOVE to ONE GOD ..Allah is the most and the Rasul..Prophet Muhammad(SAW)

(taken from wikipedia)
In a sense, love does encompass the Islamic view of life as universal brotherhood that applies to all who hold the faith. There are no direct references stating that God is love, but amongst the 99 names of God (Allah), there is the name Al-Wadud, or "the Loving One," which is found in Surah 11:90 as well as Surah 85:14. It refers to God as being "full of loving kindness." All who hold the faith have God's love, but to what degree or effort he has pleased God depends on the individual itself.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

The unforgetable 26th Birthday Moment.


I arrived about 12 o'clock at midnite.Slowly come out from the car and looked around.The building almost deserted ...Only few cars parking in front of the building.The lobby of the building quite huge.What can I see only 2 guys in uniform about 50metres far in front of me.

I start to walk and cross the huge lobby to the 2 guys with the uniform. They just stared at me when they start to realize I will seem to approach them. The place really quite at this hours..and also looks and sound a bit scary.

"En., saya nak tukar shift," both guys in uniform just nodded without saying a word.They seem to understand my purpose and allowed me to enter.I'm quickly walk straight to the lift..The area really look gloomy...But i just don't even bother.Quickly get myself into the lift.I push the button which stated 3.The lift closed very slow,and inside of the lift quite dark.That time I start to think something spooky..but then I just ignore the spooky imagination..

Once the lift open..I walk out and straight away looking to the signboard..showing Wad Kenanga B.Yes finally...I follow the sign I met my dad lying on the bed in the ward.I give him a smile and kiss his hand.

For the 1st time my dad and I really spend our quality time to talk each other..We've a chat,talking about my work, his illness,also a bit about my life and his concern about my others 2 little sister.I guess almost a few years I never eagerly wanna to have a chat with him due to something happens in our family..Make our relationship almost tear apart. I didn't even care or call him to ask how is he..only my dad willing to call and ask about me for years...

Now I start to realize everything or anything happen nothing can break the ties between the daughter and her dad.No Birthday present,no birthday wish...but the care he show...is enough to show how much he love me still..After we talked long enough I've to make my move that nite..In my heart the joy and the sadness had become one.Sad to see my dad condition...very ill and weak..happy for the 1st time in my life I had spend 26th birthday with my dad..I will never forget the moment forever.

Walk out from the hospital..I feel the half of missing part in my life already found..

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Malaysia Politics going to be suck

Well..nak citer apa pulak hari ni..Politik tanahair..Aku suka gak ikut perkembangan terkini dan mutakhir.Tapi aku malas nak komen lebih-lebih..Aku lebih suka jadi observer jer.Orang kata play safe tambah-tambah aku ni orang biasa bukan orang politik.Nak kata aku atas pagar pun tidak jugak. Mana aku rasa betul berdasarkan akal yang dikurniakan Tuhan aku sokong.

Napa aku letak tajuk yang suck. Hehehe..Sbb aku dah sampai satu tahap aku dah tak boleh terima semua berita-berita politik yang semakin ntah apa-apa.Aku ingatkan selepas Pilihanraya 8 March 2008 dimana kita dikejutkan Parti memerintah sekarang kehilangan majoriti undi.Bagi aku nampak lah sikit angin perubahan masyarakat Malaysia.Jadi kita sebagai rakyat malaysia nampaklah ada Check and Balance dalam pemerintahan .Lepas tu kita sebagai Rakyat Malaysia boleh bersatu menghadapi cabaran global.Ini tidak lepas satu satu perkara yang timbul dalam politik Malaysia,sampai aku sendiri jadi pelik.Mcm mana nak hadapi krisis ekonomi global Malaysia sendiri sibuk berpolitik dan skandal sana skandal sini.

Takpa lah tahun lepas aku boleh ok,kot tahun depan Insya allah ada perubahan orang kata 'all the politician' jadi lebih matang.Lebih buat kerja dari sibuk berpolitik.Sekali lagi punah semua harapan.Aku rasa awal-awal tahun lagi berlambak cerita dan ceritera politik sampai aku jadi muak nak tengok berita.Pastu cerita kureeeng betul pulak tu. Banyak pulak spin-spin nyer walaupun kita ni sebagai i manusia yg diberikan akal untuk berfikir jadi confused.Padahal terang-terangan secara lojik perkara tu tak betul.Sampai mak aku pernah cakap."mak yang org kampung tak reti politik pun tahu siapa betul siapa salah".Dalam hati aku cakap gak terer jugak mak aku nih walaupun belajar tak tinggi.

Satu tahap aku mmg tak boleh telan cerita kat berita.Pukul 8 malam jer aku tukar channel astro takpun aku buka internet.Ada gak faedah.Aku cuma tengok berita sukan saja .Sekarang bulan February aku dah betul give up tengok berita dan baca suratkhabar.Aku pun malas nak bgtau kat sini berita-berita apa yg buat aku SUCK tapi kalu korang baca post aku,confirm korang tahu.So untuk memastikan aku tak rasa suck aku pergilah layan gossip artis.syok skit..hihihi.

So apa yang aku nak conclude kat sini..aku mmg dah bosan dengan semua putar alam politik tanahair.Hello wake up please..Dunia ni sementara je.Kuasa dan wang kekal kat dunia.Tak laku nak rasuah kat kubur nanti. Kekuasaan,duit semuanya datang dari Tuhan..Apa yang aku pasti dan yakin Kebenaran pasti mengatasi Kebatilan.Walaupun dalma keadaan sekarang aku nampak kejahatan mengatasi kebaikkan..Ala-ala dark witch mula menguasai bumi,dan nak semua orang tunduk bawah kekuasaan Dark Witch.

The Lion cuba mempertahankan kebenaran tapi terpaksa korbankan diri untuk kebaikkan.Sampai satu tahap kita rasa Kebaikkan takkan MENANG. Tapi jangan pernah lupa kat filem ending nye Pasti kebaikkan menang.So jangan putus harapan k.


sampai bertemu lagi..

Monday, February 16, 2009

Your Love is just a lie..inspired from Simple Plan

Kindda topic I like coz I had experience it before…

Get to know with someone..then falling in love deeply..huhuhu..that hurt very2 deep…
Due to once got cheated…you will know the love that shud given u a hope is just LIE..I feel relieve when I said that. Seriously a big- big LIE..

Never had chances to say that before coz never believe the love from him just a BIG LIE.After found out what can I say just nothing “Your Love is just a LIE” Full stop..no more..

No turning back..No more sympathy..no nothing at all just left only a LIE.

hahahahaha...I'm become a bit wicked..

P/s : nothing serious just being a bit bored come out with this post after listening to Simple Plan'song Your love is just a lie..Love this song and Simple Plan

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Life baru aku.

So, mcm mana nak mula ye.Actually dah lama tak menulis dalam blog ni.Currently aku bz dengan life aku yang baru.Percaya atau tidak aku mula terlibat dalam bisnes.Wow benda yang aku tak minat nak buat tapi aku buat sekarang.

Hmm, segalanya bermula sejak kawan baik aku M.S keluarkan satu produk baru iaitu Lipstick.Jenamanya adalah Beauty Frensz yang merupakan lipstick dari ekstrak gamat (sea Cucumber)yang kita sedia maklum gamat terkenal dengan proses penyembuhan bagi kulit. Disebabkan aku suka lipstick so aku pun try pakai dan aku cuba jualkan.Alhamdulilah ada permintaan.apa lagi aku pun suka lah. Walaupun tak banyak tapi duit masuk.Di situlah titik permulaan aku dalam bidang bisnes dan pemasaran.

Disebabkan hobi aku suka bercakap, so aku banyak bercerita dengan orang tentang produk Beauty Frensz yang baru mempunyai 2 jenis produk iaitu Magic Color(berubah ikut warna darah)digunakan pada waktu siang dan lip balm perisa lime yang sesuai digunakan pada waktu malam untuk merawat bibir secara intensif .

Secara tak sengaja, aku ajak kawan aku buka e-store kat My1Stop, yang merupakan tempat membeli belah secara Maya atau lebih dikenali sebagai Virtual Shopping Mall. Secara tak langsung aku mula mempromosikan My1Stop kepada sahabat baik aku. Sebab bg aku pasaran dalm internet agak besar dan tak salah bg produk baru macam Beauty Frensz untuk memncuba.Kebetulan My1Stop juga mempunyai rakan niaga dari web-web lain seperti Open University Website, Alumni Sains Muar,dan juga MyHappyClub.Setiap produk yang masuk dibawah Package Enterprise dan Business secara automatik dapat mempromosikan E-store mereka di web-web berkenaan.

Kebetulan pula aku seorang yang aktif dalam Facebook,ada beberapa orang yang aku kenali mempromosikan produk mereka. Jadi secara tidak langsung aku promote kelebihan My1Stop untuk marketing diaorg.U know what ..I start to like it..this kindda of work.
Alhamdulilah ramai yg berminat..sebab aku terikat dengan jadual kejer yg sedia ada jadi aku tak boleh nak all out sangat. :D

Aku mulai sibuk berjumpa orang tentang itu dan ini.Hidup aku mula berubah.Dari kosong kepada bervisi sikit.Aku mula berminat dengan kejer2 freelance ni. Oklah apa-apa pun nanti aku sambung lagi tentang perkembangan diri aku ni.

sehingga berjumpa lagi

putriratnasari

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Puisi..cinta..jiwang..atau berkarat..

Ku menyusuri jalan-jalan yang pernah ku lalui bersamamu,
Terungkap semua kenangan indah yang pernah kita lalui..
Angin petang berpuput lembut menghembuskan sisa cinta yang masih berbaki,
Perlahan-lahan ku nikmati kesan cinta yang pernah hadir di sini…
Tanpa kusedari airmata mengalir mengenangkan keindahan cinta yang penah suatu masa dahulu menyatukan dua jiwa …
Ternyata takdir penentu segala,badai menimpa tak mampu ku lawan..
Kuterima pasrah ketentuan sebuah hakikat.
Cinta tak semestinya bersatu..Ku tinggalkan sebuah kenangan indah yang pernah terpahat..
Walaupun perit..harus ku teruskan perjalanan..ku tinggalkan sebuah cinta yang pernah mekar terkubur tanpa nesan.
Ku hayun kan langkah bersama bayu petang,terus tanpa berpaling tanpa kekesalan.
Tiada lagi indah,kesedihan mahupun kenangan yang kubawa bersama.
Cuma cinta yang Agung yang kukuh terpahat dijiwa.

Nukilan rasa Putriratnasari

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I don't know what the hell i'm posting the poem above..Maybe due to last frustration...or maybe it's just come naturally..I don't wanna to know why..but at least I had expressed thru the poem..berkarat and jiwang??actually i'm not kindda person.But sumtime my other side of jiwang thingy still have.hahahaha..ok lah so what's so ever..:)

Monday, January 5, 2009

Palestine...Rahimah dan Muhammad

Kelihatan seorang anak kecil teresak-esak menangis menahan kesakitan yang tak tertanggung.Badan nya berlumuran darah terkena serpihan mortar yang membedil kota Gaza. Rahimah memeluk erat anaknya itu yang baru saja berusia 5 tahun 2hari lepas. Hatinya pedih melihat keadaan anaknya,pakaian Rahimah juga basah dengan darah Mohammad.Didalam hatinya mengutuk regim zionis yang tidak henti-henti membedil kota Gaza dari semalam.Hatinya marah dan pedih cuma Tuhan saja yang tahu.Suasana kota masih dalam keadaan kelam-kabut,
Masing-masing berlari ke sana ke mari mencari bantuan menyelamatkan mangsa yang masih bernyawa.Ada teriak tangis hiba dari seorang ibu tua,kedengaran suara jeritan meminta tolong,dimerata-rata mayat bergelimpanagan.Tak kurang yang cedera.Dia buntu sambil memeluk erat anaknya.Keadaan Mohammad makin lemah,esak tangis semakin berkurang..Dia tersedar keadaan makin Mohammad makin tenat,darah masih lagi laju mengalir keluar dari lukanya .
Tanpa membuang masa Rahimah bingkas bangun sambil merangkul erat-erat ank kecil itu."Tolong...tolonggggg anak saya", dia berkeliaran mencari seseorg yang mampu menolongnya.Ternyata dalam keadaan yang kacau bilau tiada siapa yang mempedulikan jeritannya...

Dia berlari ke sana kemari tanpa arah tujuan..."Ya Allah bagi lah aku petunjuk untuk menghadapi detik-detik getir ini,padaMU aku bermohon bagilah aku kekuatan,lindungi kami semua dari kekejaman zionis laknatullah "rintih hatinya..Terasa panas matanya,digenangi airmata..namum dia tetap bertahan dari tumpah.Dia harus bangun menyelamatkan anaknya.Salah satu pewaris tanah Palestine.Perjuangan mempertahankan tanahair tercinta tetap diteruskan,dia sanggup berkorban apa saja untuk anaknya terus hidup termasuk mempertaruhkan nyawanya.Hanya anak-anak ini yang merupakan generasi penerus usaha mereka mempertahankan bumi ini dari terus diceroboh.Sasaran regim zionis adalah kanak-kanak yang tak berdosa semata-mata ingin memastikan generasi muda Palestin pupus.Suaminya mati kerna mempertahankan bumi ini...Semangat suaminya yang berkobar-kobar untuk mempertahankan palestin ,masih terngiang-ngiang kata- kata suaminya."Ini tanah air kita,jangan biarkan mereka merampasnya dari kita. Jaga anak kita sebaiknya, lindunginya dari Zionis.Hanya mereka yang kita ada untuk meneruskan generasi ini.Ceritakan ttg pengorbanan generasi sebelumnya yang mempertahankan Palestin dari dicerobohi."....Itulah kali terakhir dia mendengar amanat suaminya.Dia meninggal dunia ketika itu merupakan salah seorang doktor sukarelawan yang sedang merawat kanak-kanak dan orang awam yang cedera di bom oleh regim Zionis.Suaminya punya kerjaya yang kukuh di England sanggup pulang menyumbang kepakarannya di tanah kelahiran sendiri.

Akhirnya dia bangun setelah terduduk sebentar..Tidak semena-mena satu semangat meresap ke dalm tubuhnya.Tubuhnya bergetar lantas bangun.Dia terus bergerak mencari-cari tempat perlindungan.Akhirnya ketika dia berlari-lari anak dia ternampak sebuah bangunan hospital.
Dia mempercepatkan langkah,anak ini harus diselamatkan demi masa depan Palestine.

Ketika dia menuju ke arah bangunan hospital tak sampai 100 meter dihadapan.telinga Rahimah menangkap suatu bunyi yang sayup-sayup kedengaran.Dia langsung tidak mempedulikan sebaliknya langkah nya dipercepatkan menuju hospital,dari jauh penuh dikerumuni ratusan manusia yang memerlukan rawatan segera.

Tidak semena-mena...Kabooomm.....

Allahhuakbar!!!!!!

Tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!
Rina terus terbangun dengan nafas yang tercunggap-cungap..Peluh membasahi mukanya..Hatinya berdebar-debar kencang. Dia memandang sekeliling. Dia masih diselubungi rasa cemas yang amat sangat.Dia beristighfar dan menarik nafas panjang sambil meraup muka."Ya Allah adakah aku bermimpi?"Suasana sepi sekali sekala diselang seli bunyi kipas yang berpusing.Dia menghela nafas panjang. Setelah tenang dia baru menyedari dia cuma bermimpi.Jam menunjukkan 3.30 pagi.Tapi dia merasakan mimpi itu sangat nyata.

Perlahan-lahan Rina turun dari katil,membersihkan diri ,segera menunaikan tahajud,mencari sedikit ketenangan setelah dikejutkan dengan mimpi ngeri itu.Palestin,Rahimah,Muhammad..?
Dia mengakhiri qiyamulail dengan solat hajat diiringi doa penutup.
"Ya Allah,ya Tuhanku Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang ku bermohon padaMu, Kau lindungilah hamba-hambaMu di Palestin yang naif dan tidak berdosa dari kekejaman zionis,terutama kakakku Rahimah dan anaknya Mohammad. Aku bermohon kepadaMu selamatkan mereka . Berikan lah umat Palestine kekuatan untuk berjuang dan mempertahankan tanahair mereka tercinta.Kau laknati lah bangsa zionis yang kejam dan angkuh itu.Hanya padaMu tempat kami bermohon Ya Allah.Juga kurniakan kami disini kekuatan agar dapat membantu nasib mereka disana. AminYA Rabbal alamin."

Rina sedikit tenang,dengan masih bertelekung dia mngambil surat terakhir yang diterima dari kakaknya Rahimah yang menetap di England setelah berkahwin dengan lelaki berketurunan Palestin yang merupakan seorang doktor disana. Dia merenung surat itu bertarikh 10 Oct 2008.Tiba-tiba airmatanya mengalir,tumpah tanpa tertahan-tahan.

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I dedicate the story for all of us in conjuction of Palestine situation now...Let's us pray for their safety and peace in Palestine.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Spanish Eyes by Backstreetboys

"Spanish Eyes"

Here we are
In the arms of one another
And we still go on searching for each other
Knowing that hate is wrong
And love is right
For us tonight
When I look into your Spanish eyes
I know the reason why I am alive
And the world is so beautiful tonight

[Chorus:]
It's a place I've never been
And it comes from deep within
And it's telling me
That I'm about to win first prize
Knowing all I have to do
Is reach out my hand to you
Anytime I want to look into your Spanish eyes

Let it be if we're nothing more than dreamers
Who believe that we see no one between us
How can they be in my heart
And in my mind
When all I can find
When I look into your Spanish eyes
I know the reason why I am alive
And the world is so beautiful tonight

[Chorus]

I loved you from a distance
Thought I couldn't reach that far
I can't believe how close that we are
When I look into your Spanish eyes
And the world is so beautiful tonight

[Chorus]

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Ok Why do I like this Song???

1. I'm one of the big fan of BSB aka Backstreetboys
2. This song so ballad >>> kindda music I love to listen
3.The melody so beautiful and most of the time everytime I'm listen to the song it will recall all my sweetest memories(once upon a time when I'm in love long-long time ago) eventhough I only has malay eyes not spanish eyes.
4. Everytime I listen to the song feeling wanna fall in love AGAIN.hahahhahaa(..OMG..)
5.Anyway whatever it is..I love this song.

Just enjoy the song without thinking anything....and you feel the beautiful of this song like me..:P



Thursday, January 1, 2009

Engagement,and Mariah Carey...

So today is the 2nd day of 365days of 2009.I guess most you guys already list out all those resolution and maybe planning to make it achieve.:D For me today still same day like yesterday and no difference also for the day before.I guess also same the same for tomorrow.
Almost forget...yesterday was a special day for my cousin(How dare I'm saying yesterday only an ordinary day for an ordinary person like me).I should congratulate my cousin 1st on her engagement with her beloved person.Insya-Allah by this year they will get marry.Good for them hehhehe..but not for me..still searching.About me never mind still can manage later and still got time to find person which I can fall in love with.hahahahha (what a joke).Ok enough about that.
Now I wanna talk about my favorite song and lyric sing by Mariah Carey which known as good orI can say one of the best singer we've known . Most of her song (I mean ballad song) really nice. One of her new single which really I love the most is Bye-Bye...(I had post the You tube video with the lyrics).
Why I like the song? Good question,I guess not only me but others too like the song.Because it's about when you start to loose someone you love(the person die),,it's hard just to let go.I had gone thru such situation.The feeling of being lonely...the memories make us hard to let them go and we really cannot take it when it's about the time we need to say goodbye.
The song really tell what does it feel when you loose someone and actually we never say goodbye to the person we love...Death also can never take the love away from our heart..it's still remain there. So whatever happen even though the person we loved no more here in this world never forget that we never say goodbye to them..

Below I had post lyrics of bye bye from Mariah Carey
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This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On sunday mornings and "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I i miss you but I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(Bye bye[3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
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I guess that's all for today..

cheers and have a wonderful day,

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