Yasmin Ahmad Perginya Seorang Insan Istimewa

Tahun ini kita banyak dikejutkan dengan pemergian insan-insan yang agak terkenal dalam usia awal 50-an.Saya sendiri secara peribadi kehilangan ayah yang meninggal dalam usia 51 tahhun pada 12 April tahun ni. Juga dunia dikejutkan dengan Michael Jackson yang meninggal secara tiba-tiba akibat pengambilan dadah berlebihan.Raja Pop ini turut mengejutkan dunia apabila dia rupanya telah memeluk Islam dan pelbagai kontroversi yang turut mengiringi pemergiannya.
Baru-baru ini juga Yasmin Ahmad meninggal dunia akibat serangan strok, setelah pembedahan yang dijalankan untuk membuang ketulan darah beku di otaknya gagal.

Ternyata saya secara peribadi menerima banyak kejutan dari persekitaran. Lumrah alam, yang hidup pasti akan pergi. Berkisar mengenai Yasmin Ahmad.Hmmm kenapa memilih untuk menulis mengenainya? Saya sendiri kurang pasti, tapi ternyata dia salah seorang pengarah yang dekat karya nya dengan jiwa aku.Sebenarnya terlalu sedikit yang saya tahu mengenai peribadinya. Walaupun pelbagai kontroversi melanda dirinya baik peribadi mahupun karya-karyanya dia tetap cekal memperjuangkan idealoginya yang cukup unik.

Karya-karya Yasmin Ahmad yang sering kita tatap antaranya iklan keluaran petronas, sering meruntun hati kita.Ringkas, padat dengan mesej kasih sayang, perpaduan dan lain-lain nilai positif mengambarkan jiwanya. Begitu juga dengan karya-karya nya seperti Sepet,Gubra, Rabun , Talentime , Muksin dan lain-lain. Memang terdapat kritikan terhadap filem-filem nya yang agak sensitif bagi kita rakyat Malaysia yang kebanyakkan masih berfikiran konservatif. Tapi saya menonton filem-filem nya dengan fikiran terbuka dan saya mengerti apa yang ingin disampaikan oleh Yasmin Ahmad yg ternyata cukup kreatif menyelitkan unsur-unsur Islam dan tolak ansur sesama manusia, tanpa mengira agama atau bangsa.

Yasmin Ahmad seorang wanita yang berani mempertaruhkan idea dan pendapat melalui karya-karyanya.Secara peribadi saya sebenarnya amat mengagumi beliau seperti juga rakyat Malaysia yang lain. Pemergiannya umpama hilangnya sebutir bintang di persada seni kita. Diharapkan idea-ideanya bakal menjadi inspirasi buat golongan muda dan rakyat Malaysia keseluruhannya.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat buat beliau dan Al-Fatihah buat Yasmin Ahmad.

Harry Potter and the half blood prince

Harry Potter really grown up just like seeing my little sister slowly grown up in front of me.Believe or not I'm not interested to read any of Harry Potter book..since the 1st release up to know.Too much fiction or maybe the story line doesn't suite me I guess.
Only my sis and her beloved cousin really crazy on this Harry Potter story. Tried to watch the story by bought the DVD but still me is still me, only kids (like my sis and her cousin) dying to watch it over and over again.Me only end up with boring face.

Finally today I trapped with no more kids with me , but the two teenagers really eager to watch Harry Potter.Surprisingly these teenagers usually wake up late on Sunday..had amazed me by waking so early just to watch Harry Potter today at the nearest cinema.

Make me line up for almost an hour just to buy 3 tickets for us (including me with the boring face).These two teenagers seem to be extremely excite. Planning to spend only RM9 each ticket ,unfortunately the movie classified as blockbuster for this weekend.Finally RM12 per ticket.I'm shocked , then I saw the blockbuster stated at the tickets.Ok fine...only for today.

Then the two teenagers really enjoyed the movie so much,and they're specifically can identified who is who, which I notice most of the actor been in Hogwarts since the 1st year with Harry Potter and friends.Me not too sure,only can memorize a bit.

What can I say this movie really grown up with the group of actor(including the extras).So do to my little sis and my cousin. Making me feeling a bit old today..

The climb in my life...............

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh
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Why i'm posting the lyrics? Coz I like the song.Very simple and straight forward.
Last time I went out and watched Hannah Montana instead watching Transformer 2.Actually me and my little sis planning to watch Transformer 2 on that day but unfortunately no are no tickets left for us.So, since we already in the queue for almost 30minutes I decided to pick Hannah Montana which is one of my nightmares to watch the kid's idol movie~Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana.Seriously I'm not her fan at all.

But suddenly everything change when I started to watch it and slowly to enjoy the simple story line about a teenager dream to be a singer, and she achieved it.But her dad want her becoming a nice and sweet country girl compare to glamorous teenage singer.

In this movie had include some of the songs of Hannah Montana..her song quite enjoyable and not too childish.I started to enjoy the song together with story. I prefer 'the climb' coz it more on me and I bet most to the most of the people around will feel the same.

In life we need to climb..there's no easy way to get up to the top.Whether you like it or not u need to climb up, and finally when you reach the top you will really feel how happy after you can see the beautiful view around which you never ever imagine before.

Similar to my life..a lot of climb i need to go through. Sometime I felt wanna give up. But I need to fight all the negative things in my mind and start to climb up. When I feeling down, at least when I'm listening to this song...I'm not sooo down.I start to realize not only me facing the difficulty but also other people too.Sometime they facing more harder than mine but still they climb the mountain without no doubt.

So why should feeling down before trying to climb the mountain. I should be strong and dare to take the risk and challenges..

Perlu kamu..Ajai ft Kris Dayanti

Ajai & Krisdayanti - Perlu Kamu

Ajai:

Saat ini
Ku cerita
Isi hati segala rahsia
Aku rindu
Aku perlu
Hati kamu terukir namaku

Kris Dayanti:

Aku tahu
Aku rindu
Aku perlu mengenali kamu
Biar masa bercerita
Kau takkan hilang aku sayang

Chorus :

Ajai:

Ku sadari saat manis ni kan pergi
Biar aku ngerti
Kerna aku mahu kamu

Kris Dayanti:

Ku ulangi kau yakini hati ini
Kerna aku cinta kamu
Hari hari aku
Kan menjadi hari kamu
Kerna syarat hidup
Disayangi…

Both:
Biar nyata
Aku setia
Janji cinta tentunya berbeda
Maafkan lah salah kita
Biar benci
Ku tetap di sisi

Chorus :

Ajai:

Ku sadari saat manis ni kan pergi
Biar aku ngerti
Kerna aku mahu kamu

Kris Dayanti:

Ku ulangi kau yakini hati ini
Kerna aku cinta kamu
Hari hari aku
Kan menjadi hari kamu
Kerna syarat hidup….

Ajai:

Ku sadari saat manis ni kan pergi
Biar aku ngerti
Kerna aku mahu kamu

Kris Dayanti:

Ku ulangi kau yakini hati ini
Kerna aku cinta kamu
Hari hari aku
Kan menjadi hari kamu
Kerna syarat hidup
Disayangi…

Aku perlu
Aku rindu

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Love this song taken from OST Hati Malaya, touching song composed by Ajai and Lyrics from Shuhaimi Baba.

Am I Failed???!!!

Lately my mind quite distracted with few internal affairs issue. I'm feeling a bit or quite down recently.I don't know how to express what inside my mind and what I feel right now. The best way is by writing it inside my blog.At least I will be a bit release.

Since my dad passed away, I tried to settle every problem arise in our family.I mean in our niche family.Yes I do aware my dad family consider my younger brother need to take that responsibility.Since that he also no too strong internally and financially, so I need to assist him in taking care my other 2 sister and my mum.

Lot of issues actually start to be happen. I tried my best to solve it with rational,open minded, the best way I think. I start to realize my life actually start to change. No more shopping twice per month.Everything I buy or do I need to be more calculative.Quite tough for me to adapt with my new responsibility. From the list of responsibility not all I manage to handle it properly.But I try to take it positively.I need time adjust with new environment and life.

Actually I try to pretend with everyone I'm ok and I trying my best to tackle all the problem arise especially from my little sister.She still study at Secondary School in PJ. I just moved here to the school. She not seem to be happy at that school compare her old school in Kedah. I understand she still in thrauma since my dad passed away.She 's the one in the family which look and feel quite depressed, eventhogh until now.

She seem need to adapt and change a lot within short time of transition from our hometown to here. Yes, she do complaint about school, and etc2, which I ignored it , because I want her to understand this is time for her to change and make it more better than before. I try to pretend what she complaint doesn't make sense, but in deep of my heart I know she's hurt,tense, need more attention from me and the rest of us.

We try to give the best,but I know her heart still feeling empty.That what she told me before, but I just teasing her,and make fun,and sometime try persuaded her life will be much better.

Suddenly, yesterday my patience to her complaint come to the limit which I don't think I can stand it anymore.I really2 blowed last nite. I felt she really going overboard of my patience. I don't want too, but I need too.I really throw my anger to my little sis. Then she cried all over the night and refused to go the school today.She told my mum it won't happen if our dad still here. She also said she don't want to stay with me.

Yeah I realised quite tough for her to go through this hard time and also tough for me too to make her understand why I'm doing this and that.Also why I'm decided this and that. When she said to my mum she don't want to stay with me anymore.I asked myself 'am I failed to be good big sister?' Maybe yes...

But should I give up?No I shouldn't. I know sometime I neglected her, not too aware about her study,her needs, and also her happiness.Then here we go, I'm feeling moral down , stress, and FAILED.I need to stand up and cope with the problems.

I think , I really need advise and to cool down at this moment, (sigh)

Marriage Season

This year I'm already turned to be 26.This number actually scare me.Why?The answer is becoz this year most of my friends are getting married. My mum and my grandma start to ask me when and who is my future hubby.I know they started to be worried neither me.

Before I start to tell more.. I would like to congratulate my friends Sabrina and Nizam(graduate same year with me on Feb 2004) finally they end up their long love story with a great and blessful wedding.Sorry guys cannot attend your weddings got something personal need to be settle,but no worries I already reserved both of you the wedding present.

Not forgetting my best friend, also the blogger Mohd Syahman already attended his 'kursus kahwin' today with his fiancee. He going to get marry by the end of this year. Of course my pray always be with your dear friend.

Hmm others..who also in the list..yeah my dearest friend friend Dyan and Pyan. Nice and happy go lucky couple.Always beside me when I'm in trouble. Already get engaged and also planning to start new life as husband and wife by the end of this year..Working hard for it to ensure the plan will be reality. Hoping can celebrate their special moment by this year.

Then who next? hmm the latest is Hairi Hafzi..My long- long time darling wannabe.Hehehe.. sound weird right? Ok I will tell a little bit about him. When I'm still studied in University we're very closed and almost to be couple.huhuhu..Eventhough both of us not destiny to be like other sweet couple, but had spend some few sweet memories together. I'm gonna missed those old sweet time with him . But nevermind I'm really happy he already find someone better than me. I'm always pray the best for him.:D

So now what about me????Hmm still looking for Mr. Nice guy.Found a few but already rejected them due to so many reason..Am i choosy?? I don't know..Maybe..This year there's a lot of thing in my mind, marriage, family matters, financial, housing, and driving license...huhuhu. I'm not sure this year I'm quite ready to be welcome in the 'marriage world' due to so many circumtances in my life.

So far I'm feeling bless , I'm on the right path of my carrier, at least I feel good about that.I get a lot of friends from diffrent background.I had widened my mind from being too conservative by knowing a lot of good friends from Facebook and my work place.

Marriage? I don;t think I'm ready yet for this year..Already got someone? Insya allah..if he meant for me, we will take our relationship to the next level, but for sure not this year.I hope he can understand in order to be with me.

The conclusion is, I'm happy my friends already found their true LOVE.For me I will let my destiny lead the way. I don't want to bother so much..

Gud nite KL..hope no more hazy morning tomorrow..

Syurga Cinta ...Wajib Tonton beb...

Semalam aku telah 'dipaksa' oleh member2 satu pejabat untuk menonton 'Syurga Cinta' filem arahan Ahmad Idham. Waktu tayangan pukul 7.30, jadi aku ni mcm biasa terkejar-kejar dengan waktu solat dan masa tayangan.Tapi Alhamdulilah sempat lah juga aku masuk 5 minit cerita tu ditayangkan.
Setelah aku menonton 'Syurga Cinta' , serius lah memang berbaloi tiket wayang RM 10. Pada mulanya aku ingat cerita ni ala-ala filem indonesia kegemaran aku ' Kiamat Sudah Dekat' .Konsep memang sama ,filem berunsur Islamik, merubah lelaki yang jahil tentang Islam kepada muslim yang lebih baik.Tapi gaya penceritaan totally berbeza.
Filem ni tampak macam ringan tapi sarat berisi mesej dan peringatan yang berguna buat kita yang bergelar hamba-Nya pada yang Satu.Lakonan Awal dan Heliza AF bagi aku tak mengecewakan. Terutama Awal, aku tak sangka dia boleh bawa wataknya dalam Filem 'syurga Cinta ' dengan baik.Sebab berat jugak watak yang dia bawakan.

Nak aku cerita tentang sinopsis ceritanya,nanti dulu kot...pergi tengok dulu, baru feel sendiri.hehehe..tapi serius memang tangkap nangis.Bukan sebab ceritanya jiwang, tapi filem ini buat kita sedar siapalah diri kita disisi -Nya...Terlalu lalai hingga lupa siapa kita dan mengapa kita disini.Jadi jangan lepaskan peluang menonton 'Syurga Cinta' di pawagam terdekat anda....